Tdub's new partner is moving here, and they are buying a house in the development where I owned a house before Tdub and I married and moved into town. It's a pretty tough blow for me. If you've read the blog much, you know that while I enjoyed many aspects of living in the old house that needed complete renovation, I was becoming weary of it. The emotions of it are compounded by the fact that, at the time we married, Tdub was adamant about not living in the particular development (it's quite nice) where I already owned a home. And yes, I did enjoy living in town as well because of the easy access to the schools and such. This is still a pretty major kick in the gut for me. And it's one of the primary reasons I'm so determined to move away from this community. I just need a fresh start, away from the reminders of the past, least of all having Tdub's continued journey passing to and fro in front of me from time to time.
I can't even write about it here without breaking down. I guess, this is the final blow in just how OVER, it all is. I'd invested a great deal of myself into the marriage. I recognize it more when this sort of thing seems to hurl itself into my face. I don't believe that's his intent, but it couldn't be more hurtful even if it were. I may write more about it later. I've hesitated to write about this sort of thing, but it's time. I can't divert forever with pictures of my darling dachshunds!
love and grace,
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